Life in general · 03. December 2020

Most wonderful time

Christmas, the most wonderful time of the year.

At least that is what they say. Like with all the other plans we made for the year 2020, we have to find ways for make it work, and most of the times that is a little different then we’re used to. and if that doesn't suck enough, Mr. B and I won't be able to be together over the holidays this year. I’ve loved Christmas for as long as I can remember. The twinkling lights you see wherever you go, the music that's always in the background, the smell of hot cacao (yes, the smell, I don't like the taste of it.) and roasted orange slices, a nice hot steaming cup of tea, watching the same Christmas movies every year and maybe some new ones too, getting together with loved ones and just enjoying time together and then there is the food, it always seems to taste even better on Christmas.

Even after 26 years it is still magic to me. Every year again I try to keep that magic alive. They say you stop seeing the magic because you get too old, I say you get old because you stop seeing the magic. So, I always try to see and appreciate the tiny things that get overlooked. But for the first time in forever I'm dreading the holidays. Christmas Markets are cancelled, we can’t go anywhere. Big gatherings are not allowed, and most of all Mr B won't be there. This would have been our first Christmas together in our new home. Even though we are not together in the same home, it is still a first.

I still put up our Christmas tree, I still decorate it with the same love and excitement. I still love putting real greenery around the house. I still put the wreath on our front door and I still scatter some small decoration throughout the house. It is hard doing it alone. But that’s okay, I know he’s there going through the same things I'm going through, and we will get through it. i have a lot of people here keeping an eye on me, making sure i'm doing okay, and he has a lot of people there taking care of him. so, we'll be fine.

oh, what we do for love, which is what Christmas is all about in the end. Love and kindness and sharing it with others. If you can’t be with the person you wanted to be with on Christmas, just know that you are never alone. Just share your love and kindness with someone else and make sure you pass it on.